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Sooner or later, I'll post some non-stressy stuff... [Oct. 16th, 2010|05:30 pm]
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...but I suppose that's not going to happen today.

Skitty has a large bump behind one ear. She's lost 14 ounces in 6 weeks (and on a 6 pound kitty, that's even worse than usual).

Got her to the vet, the doctor thinks cancer is the most likely cause, and took a needle aspiration.

It could be an infection. We won't know until the labs open and analyze the sample.(Under the microscope, he saw signs of inflammation, but nothing conclusive.)

Well... while I was there, I'd decided that if he saw cancer, we weren't going to draw it out. Skitty's had a very unhappy life in some ways - I don't see any point in letting it draw out if she can't be happy and comfortable.

But the doctor said it might not be cancer. So, we gave her a shot of antibiotic. And now we wait.

And I want to grieve, and worry, but I don't have time. So, back to work.

I am once again realizing that I'm really past normal stress reactions at this point. I've cried a couple times for a few minutes, but there comes a time where it's just, like, okay, so, what can I do? Nothing. So, keep going.

I will grant that keeping busy *is* better than moping, but sometimes it makes me want to scream at the forces that are keeping me busy, because everyone deserves a little moping time, you know?
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[User Picture]From: karenkay
2010-10-17 01:17 am (UTC)
I agree with you.

Good hopes for your Skitty kitty.
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[User Picture]From: janetmiles
2010-10-17 01:26 am (UTC)
Poor Skitty.

Wishing you both the best possible outcome.
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[User Picture]From: ftemery
2010-10-17 01:51 am (UTC)
If would be so much better if we could just schedule these things, you know? Grief, worry, nervous breakdown check, it's on my calender. I suppose all kitty knows is that her life is good now, with you.
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[User Picture]From: wordweaverlynn
2010-10-17 01:57 am (UTC)
Sending you warm thoughts from another stressed-out life.
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[User Picture]From: glinda_w
2010-10-17 02:51 am (UTC)
Oh, no. I am so sorry.

GoodThoughts...
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-17 08:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I've been watching her, and... well, suddenly a few things I'd noticed are making sense. I think she's losing fine motor control and can't eat any more. It's not that she's not hungry (though her hunger signals seem confused) - it's that her mouth won't quite do the right things. But she can still cuddle, and find a warm spot, and even play a bit.

That's kind of been my marker - when a cat can't be *a cat* any more, it's time to let go. When she can't play, can't find a warm spot and cuddle up and purr, and so forth, then it's time to let go. For right now, she can.

I don't think it'll be very long. But there's no need to rush.
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