|So tomorrow's the day my life changes...
||[Sep. 22nd, 2013|10:49 pm]
Sounds a bit melodramatic, I suppose, but it's true. Either they find something and can fix it, and things get better, or they don't, and I have a really big mystery on my hands. |
Either way, things are changing.
I'm feeling oddly confident, like this is the way things should be going - like this is the proper ending to a chapter of my life and the beginning of another.
I hope I don't have the opportunity to look back on this cockeyed optimism and feel bad about it :-).
There's always a chance, you know - always a chance that things go wrong.
What would I like to say, in the event that such a one in a million shot happens?
Well... I love you. Each and every one of you. Yes, you, that random person who clicked on a link someone posted to this article - even though I don't know anything about you. But to those of you I do know, well, it's a bit more real.
One of the great tragedies of my life is that I don't always have the energy to know precisely why I love you, that I don't have the ability to see the wonder and power that is in each and every one of you. But I know it's there - and the failure is that I can't see it, and I do feel sometimes that it's a failure, not merely a lack. It's one I hope to correct.
Here's the thing, though: you're there all the time, to observe and feel and understand what it's like from the inside - and it would be more than a mere tragedy if you couldn't see it, that wonder, that power; if you couldn't get even a good glimpse of it, couldn't find even the merest spark to cherish, and slowly fan into a flame.
Look for it; it's there. And find it and cherish it and be it.
*hugs, and GoodThoughts, and love returned*
Good thoughts are going your way. I love you, too.
"Either they find something and can fix it, and things get better, or they don't, and
I have a really big mystery on my hands they'll need to do more tests."
Fixed that for you :-D
And I love you, too...
Wishing you well, and you're dear to me too.
*hugs* GoodThoughts on the way. *hugs again*
I hope that things go smoothly today, that they find an answer, and that it's something that can be treated easily and with minimal stress.
I love you too.
Despite my rare visits to LJ, darlin', you know how I feel. I love you, now and always...
Light and love, wonder and awe to you, too.
I've been away from the 'net and so didn't post my well-wishes in time for you to see them. <3 I hope all is well with you; my thoughts are with you.