||[Oct. 14th, 2004|09:39 am]
Well... I got to see a Presidential candidate talk about the two great commandments yesterday. It was wonderful, especially to see him say that he doesn't feel we've been doing the "love of neighbor" enough, recently, which is a perfect way for a Democrat (or, dare I say, "liberal") to express concerns about helping people out.|
I've always had a great love of those commandments, because I realized what I think is the proper interpretation of them.
"Love God..." is the first. Well, I reasoned, what do you love about God? His smile? His ability to crack a joke that breaks up the room? His willingness to bring chicken soup to everyone who has a cold?
See, God isn't physical, so you'd have to love something else. And, what evokes *love* for God would have to be (speaking Ex Cathedra from my belly button, as Jubal Harshaw put it) that God is good and loving. What else *could* you love about him? What else do you see, sense, or hear about, that evokes love? Other things might evoke respect or awe, but not deep, abiding, passionate love.
So, "Love God with your whole heart, mind, and soul" means to love what is good, and loving.
And, "Love your neighbor as yourself", well, that just about speaks for itself.
Of course, Palmer's Corollary, known by tradition as Palmer's Lemma(lime): "Love yourself enough so you're not a right bastard to your neighbor." Proof proceeds by demonstration.
(The next corollary is known by ancient tradition - hey, it was decided in my college years! - as Palmer's Gin and Tonic, and I'm not entirely sure how it's worded, but I think it starts with "Love is, like, really cool, man, like, the coolest thing in the universe...")
And, he also spoke happily of receiving a blessing from American Indians... god damn, but to hear a Catholic speak happily of receiving a pagan blessing nearly made me tear up. ("Pagan" in the sense of "nonchristian", not in the sense of "neopagan", of course.)
But there's more that's making this a good day.
I've been in a bit of a funk for the past week or so, and I guess I'm not surprised if my energy is low. I've done a hell of a lot over the past few months. Two trips to Philly in August to help my brother's passing, a self-initiation ritual, a lot of writing (From August through today, probably close to 40,000 words, though it's not all tied together yet, and some of it can't be tied to the rest of it), and a good bit of work stress.
But, talking to Pat (kightp) last night reminded me of what it is I really want to do, something I'd decided I wanted to do back in August, but I'd taken my eye off the prize.
I want to be a healer. And, I want to arrange my life so I can pursue that goal. I think some web design, a touch of programming work, and a little bit of database branching out (probably learning some MySQL to go with my SQL Server), and I'll probably be able to do consulting work to help support me through either additional schooling (if I want to become a 'normal' counselor) or through whatever crazy weirdness will make me a spiritual healer.
And gosh darn it all, if I can't make a living out of being a healer, I'll have to settle for second best, and do database and web work, making lots of money. But at least I'll know why I'm doing that work.