|Thought about depression/life/etc.
||[Jul. 19th, 2007|12:57 pm]
It's not "normal" to wake up feeling good, in the sense that, if nothing is *bad*, you're feeling *good*. It takes work. |
Sometimes that work is natural, and easy, to the point that it doesn't seem like work. Some people have it easier than others. They're lucky, not normal.
What I mean by this is, if you have to work harder than you think others have to work, just to be neutral, let alone happy, it doesn't mean you're broken, that you're a bad person, a lazy person, a person who isn't doing what all people should do. It doesn't mean you're a failure, it doesn't mean that you're a loser. It means you're facing a challenge, a unique challenge, one that no one else has ever faced, and one that no one will ever face again.
You might read this and feel the way I do, sometimes. You might feel a bit of despair. "You mean I'm not going to work hard for a while, and then *bam*, I'll be happy almost every day without working hard at it?"
Probably not. But if you learn your own unique challenges and how to handle them, you can find the best way to work towards your happiness, and make it easier.
Maybe it'll never be easy... but it won't be quite so hard, because at least you'll have some information about how to work at it more efficiently. If you're lucky, you might be able to build a set of habits that will keep you on an even keel, almost all the time, without consciously having to expend much effort. Or you might not be able to. It sucks, but that's how life is, sometimes.