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Wistfulness over vitamins... [Jan. 18th, 2008|05:55 pm]
John
Shortly before I moved here, I bought a pack of multi-vitamins... it was, I dunno, 130 vitamins, in two bottles, one of a hundred, one of thirty.

Before, when I bought such things, I sometimes would take the 30 down to Pat's house, so, if I remembered, I could take one on days I was visiting. This time... well, this time I realized that I should take down the larger bottle, and keep the smaller one up in Washington.

Today, well... today I realized that some of the disappointments in my life can be summed up by how many vitamin tablets are still in that bottle.

I've never really had the discipline to keep up a habit like "take a vitamin every day". But even at my slower pace of remembering to take them, I'd felt sure that, somehow, I'd end up emptying the stupid bottle before I left.

It's come down to a critical point. There's one job left that's open that I feel I have a reasonable chance to get. I'll find out next week. If not, well, it's back to contracting at Microsoft.

I've been investigating apartments, and I have some decent ones lined up. The cost isn't *too* bad; more than I like to think about paying, but I've always been a cheapskate. Still, my pay is good enough that I can search for apartments that are relatively close to work, and receive decent ratings from the one rating site I've found.

It's still all up in the air, and I guess part of me wants it that way. I don't want to leave.

Hell, I want to be able to run to the grocery store and see vitamins are on sale this week, and buy another bottle, figuring it won't get thrown away or have to be moved.

But life doesn't always give us what we want.
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[User Picture]From: kightp
2008-01-19 10:08 am (UTC)
I don't want you to leave, either. But we'll manage, whatever happens.
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