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Stressed... [Oct. 2nd, 2010|02:50 pm]
John
I just realized, as I bought a laptop to replace the one that was stolen after my house was burglarized on Tuesday, that I have reason to be stressed right now.

I figured it out last week, really. I was having tired, cranky fits while visiting kightp and I couldn't figure out why I wasn't able to find a good, even keel. And then I realized I've got a boatload of stress at work, in a situation in which my management has no interest in how I'm doing my job, but is sure that I'm not working out anyway, I'm studying like mad to make a major job change (moving to the Perf team), had a big family fight, a death in the family, and bought a house, leading to lots more money problems than I anticipated.

Yeah. I'm stressed.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:36 am (UTC)
I'll have to take you up on that sometime.
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[User Picture]From: bkwrrm_tx
2010-10-02 10:26 pm (UTC)
Yes, that would definitely be stress.

I didn't know you were burgled. Hope they catch the creeps.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:35 am (UTC)
Yeah, it's gotten stressy enough that there doesn't seem any point to mention little things like that....
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[User Picture]From: kyra_ojosverdes
2010-10-02 10:29 pm (UTC)
Hugs and supportive thoughts to you. Good luck wading through everything!
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:38 am (UTC)
Thank you...and I do feel like I'm finally wading rather than drowning :-).
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[User Picture]From: submarine_bells
2010-10-02 11:01 pm (UTC)
No shit, Sherlock. :-)

Yup, that counts as lots of stress. Remember to take a few deep breaths every so often and be kind to yourself. I find that a little bit of indulgence goes a long way in moments like these.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:40 am (UTC)
Thank you; this helped me think about grabbing some whiskey, and getting a light buzz to go with StupidComputerGames, and it was helpful....
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[User Picture]From: pernishus
2010-10-02 11:17 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry that all that stuff has landed on you at once, John. I hope some moments of respite come soon, and especially that work stuff begin to go better for you.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:49 am (UTC)
Thanks. I've managed to separate my head from the big stuff, and I'm able to start dealing with them, a bit at a time.

The work stuff... well, I have some ideas on how to deal with it, but, of course, it depends on how clueless my boss really is.
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[User Picture]From: glinda_w
2010-10-02 11:24 pm (UTC)
Oy. GoodThoughts. Stress just wears a person down, and it's insidious, hiding in the background...
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:51 am (UTC)
Nod. But the good news is, I'm starting to realize this is all *fixable*. Not happy, but fixable.
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[User Picture]From: kightp
2010-10-02 11:49 pm (UTC)
Any one of those things would be plenty stressful on its own. The way you described it in email the other day ("a really shitty week to end a really shitty month, at the end of a really shitty season, of a really shitty year" was spot on. Here's hoping for better - and you know if there's anything I can do to help make that happen, I will.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:53 am (UTC)
Things will get better. And, on the positive side, I've started a new TitanQuest character.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:55 am (UTC)
Thank you - I've been feeling the same thing, wishing you had a sane/healthy place to live....
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[User Picture]From: irismoonlight
2010-10-03 01:19 am (UTC)
Um, and had your home invaded by a burglar, and some of your stuff stolen, apparently. Yeah, that combo is pretty high on the stress scale.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 02:56 am (UTC)
Nod... I was surprised how nonplussed I was by the burglary before I realized "oh, yeah, emotional exhaustion. Ain't nothing left to stress *with*."
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[User Picture]From: barbarakitten_t
2010-10-03 01:45 am (UTC)
sounds like even with stress you are making sense of a shitty situation. And you have pat to help and lots of friends who care
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 03:03 am (UTC)
Nod. That's not to say I couldn't use a long, warm kittent-hug.
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[User Picture]From: teddywolf
2010-10-03 01:59 am (UTC)
Yeah... all of those things are a bit stressful. Together you have an enormous stress stew, and it isn't all locavore and organic either.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 03:06 am (UTC)
Yes... but on the plus side, I suppose, the stew will break down after it cooks long enough. And, maybe I can compost the rest of it?
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[User Picture]From: wordweaverlynn
2010-10-03 07:41 am (UTC)
That sounds like an enormous amount of stress.

Sending you warm thoughts.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 03:07 am (UTC)
Thank you; warm thoughts are definitely welcome!
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[User Picture]From: merlin_t_wizard
2010-10-03 06:01 pm (UTC)
Well let's see:
Stress at work=S
Added stress of uncaring boss=S
Trying to make the jump to Perf team before boss can end employment=S
big family fight=S
a death in the family=S
being house poor=S
and then having that house burglarized=S^S
So: S compounded by S which is then compounded by S, which is then compounded by another S, which is then compounded by yet another S, which is then compounded by an additional S, which is then compounded by a final S^S. All that equals S^S^S^S^S^S^S^S. Yep, that's a lot of stress.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 03:10 am (UTC)
Yes... I think I made the right call yesterday, doing some modest drinking and blowing off study time playing computer games.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 03:12 am (UTC)
Well, if we lived closer, I'd definitely talk to you about that healing circle :-). But as it is, just knowing that you're out there, and that you care, helps.
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[User Picture]From: essaying
2010-10-04 04:02 am (UTC)
I hadn't heard about the burglary. I'm so sorry. And, yes, you're under *enormous* stress; be really really good to yourself.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2010-10-04 04:47 am (UTC)
Well, I didn't talk about the burglary; I'm kinda at the "little stuff like that? Not worth mentioning any more" stage. (Yes, I know, burglaries *aren't* little stuff. But they feel like it. I'm just glad I don't own much of portable value.)
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