|Bad days but maybe hitting a floor
||[Apr. 16th, 2014|09:51 pm]
So, the bad news is that Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were all semi-bad days, but I think I am turning things around by noticing them and increasing my rest. And I got through them. And I did things - I bought shoes, ran outside-the-house chores, picked up my medications, and worked relatively well each of those days. |
It's not good, but it's not bad. Small victories are nevertheless victories.
In additional bad news, I'm definitely gaining weight, undoubtedly due in part to having been exercising really heavy a year ago, and learning eating habits from that. Seriously, I was doing thousand-calorie workouts over the course of a day, I had to pump up my food intake. But now I'm not even doing 200 calorie workouts - that's a lot of extra bad eating habits.
I'm trying to go low-carb again, and seeing if it will help. Atkins actually invented his diet for heart patients - it probably won't hurt!
The bad news about fatigue right now is that I'm in that weird middle ground - I'm not so fatigued my emotions are flattened, but I'm not feeling good enough for my native optimism (or is there an extra T in that phrase?) to kick in.
But there are other things. A relationship with a friend is changing, and I'm thinking it's going to end. I mean, not *end*, there are people I haven't seen in forever, but we're not not-friends, we're just not hanging out now. But we're also absent from each other's lives.
And of course, there's always that question: maybe it's for the best. Maybe our time is just past; things change, and that means things end. I don't want that to be true but wants don't define reality.
Ah well. That is life right now. Here's hoping it's treating you better.