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Oddness - wanting to share, but nothing to explain [Oct. 31st, 2014|10:25 pm]
So... about, dear lord, three years ago, I had a bad case of sciatica. Scary bad. "Am I disabled?" bad. I said it was in "my hip" but my doctor told me, no, that's my lower back, or my leg.

Well, I understood what she was saying, but... damn it.

Well, a massage therapist finally wrung the tightness out of my piriformis muscle, and that stopped a lot of the pain, but I still felt something was "wrong" with my leg. It felt turned out.

I went to a few physical therapists, but none of them seemed to have any idea what was going on. One thought that I was having serious hip issues - while I was running 3+ miles a day! Others just never seemed to approach the area having problems.

I later learned that there are two big, major muscles - the psoas muscle, and the ileacus muscle. They attach through your pelvis to your upper thigh. And I became a bit obsessed, because they both pass through the bottom of the pelvis in the groin region, and I felt like I had a steel cable embedded in my left groin.

I can't explain what I did. I just kind of kept up my awareness of the muscles that seemed too tight, and not working quite right and kept trying to find the way they should work. I kept thinking about lengthening and strengthening them.

And the pain got better, and started to shift.

This past week, I suddenly realized I could kind of shift my hip in a way that wasn't painless, but felt like it was close to where the hip was supposed to be, and it felt like I had some muscles fighting back, but... well, they weren't fighting *quite* so hard any more.

Previously, I'd been working mostly from the leg - trying to use the leg to force how the hip moved, but now, I feel like I'm engaging the lower back/hip. I feel like I'm knocking on the door of having a normal stride again. (Not that you would have noticed my stride being *ab*normal before now... but I'm starting to think that dancing, or martial arts, might not be out of my reach. Assuming I can ever handle the physical exertion without going all fatigued, of course!

Adding to this, I pushed my doctor to let me try Provigil which seems to be having good effects, and Monday, I do my four day EEG. I'm kind of hopeful that things might be on an upswing for me.

Here's hoping life is treating you all extremely well - I know I haven't been "here," in both senses of the word, that much recently and hope to be more present, more often, in the future.

[User Picture]From: bkwrrm_tx
2014-11-01 07:27 am (UTC)
Good, on all counts. :-)
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[User Picture]From: ljgeoff
2014-11-01 01:19 pm (UTC)
I remember when you first started having trouble with your sciatic. It's good to hear that it's improving. The way that you listen to your body is cool.
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[User Picture]From: redbird
2014-11-01 02:57 pm (UTC)
That is definitely good news.

I am also reminded that a few years ago, I had an exercise I was doing to strengthen my psoas muscle. And I think I can remember it well enough to do it again. (The exercise room in my building doesn't have a foam roller, and it was easy to fall out of the habit of doing my gym exercises that involve it.) Thank you for this.
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