|Feeling scary-good (which isn't all *that* good, but...)
||[Jun. 15th, 2015|08:12 am]
I realized that I've felt worse since taking beta blockers, and saw that there are some conditions like mine where they're counter-indicated. So I stopped them. I started feeling a bit better. Then, since exercise was making my heart rate go too-high, I went back on at a low dose (25mg). I've also started taking 10 grams of fish oil a day (which is probably not a good idea) and I'm maxed on an antidepressant.
Yesterday, I did some mowing (I use a reel mower) and did a 25 minute workout on my treadmill... my eyes are dry (this happens if I work out late in the day) and I feel a bit overheated (one of my constant symptoms - just a bit too much exercise and I'll feel as warm, and sweat as much, as an ice block in the Sahara. (How warm it feels itself, I mean. To you it'd feel comfortably cool, but ice blocks are very opinionated about temperature extremes. You should see how brittle they get if the temperature drop too much!)
Anyway... it's not good news, and I've had enough false starts that I'm being cautious about thinking good things, and I could crash midway through the day (hell, midway through the *morning*), but I have a better feeling starting the day than I've had in over a year. I'll take that, at this moment, even if it's only for this moment.
Even if the good feeling lasts, I think I need to be extra careful not to exert myself today. This is where I've had an easy time triggering a crash because I think I can do more than I can.