Wow, this sounds really hard. *hugs* and if you want to talk about it, I'm here.
Thank you for the hugs, and maybe I'll steal an extra hug or two before I say that it really wasn't that hard... do you mind?
I was being more angsty-philosophical, I suppose... trying to put what bothered me about the situation into words.
Oh, yeah... you've always impressed me as a good person to know and talk to.
It's weird, when I think about the changes, some of which came from a.c.. (If I had to point to one big lesson, it would be "the best of people can be blind in certain situations. And blind means you *can't* see, not that you *won't* see!" And, of course, realizing that sometimes the "blind, best of people" is me. :-) )
Ugh, I'm sorry you're going through this. But it's good advice for anyone, about anyone, really. *hugs*
(re: good advice) Chuckle; yeah, it is... I think that's why it's the version I finally was able to post. I didn't want to just complain, but I did want to say *why* this situation felt bad to me.
Do I have any idea what you're talking about?
I don't think I've been bitching about you, in public or otherwise, so I don't think this is directed at me.
I'm sorry something is hurting you, and I hope it stops.
I don't know if you know what I'm talking about, but even if you might, I wouldn't say so, since I'm trying to keep it anonymous. You may, or may not, read the person this happened between.
And, actually, no one hurt me that badly... it was actually... well, hm.
I suppose it was a good thing, all things considered. I recognized a pattern that would have caused more problems down the road. Not a happy thing, but more of a learning experience.
hey joh...i'm here if you need me...
I know, darlin', and I'm here if you ever need me, too.
(Just as a quick blanket response to everyone)
Nothing serious is going on; it's just a little bit of angst, where a person misunderstood something I said.
I'm not upset at that, especially given the type of statement (one of my multiple-reversal statements; in retrospect, it was a bad choice of wording), and I'm not really upset that there was public talk about it.
I *am* upset that there was negative public talk (albeit referring to me anonymously) without being talked to first, when that person also called me "a friend". There were some other buttons pushed in the situation, but that's the gist of it.
There's no real anger or animosity... just a bit of frustration at such a huge disconnect between what friendship means to the both of us.
OK, darlin', if you say so.
(I'm slightly amused to find myself fighting an impulse to come out swinging in a situation where I (a) don't know who I'd be swinging at and (b) wouldn't do it, anyway, 'cause it's none of my business. The first person to use the phrase "maternal instinct," however, gets spanked.)
1) I'm pretty certain that's not the kind of instinct going on here.
2) You realize that for certain people that would be an incentive?
You realize that for certain people that would be an incentive?
*ineffective attemt at wide-eyed innocence*
Dunno wha-hoppened, but I hope the situation resolves well for you.
Thanks; near as I can tell, it's over, and no harm, no foul. It's not *happy*, but it's not any great tragedy.
Hang in there.
Thanks; it was more mild than it might have seemed. A person who never treated me very well got angry and didn't bother to ask what I meant, and I was like "Okay, fine, but don't call me a friend if you're going to cuss me out, even anonymously, without getting my side of the story."
And I realized that, while I cared, it was a lot less than I would have in the past.
And, I realized what what I had to say was kind-of true... I don't want friendship unless we'll either try to work things out, *or* consciously agree to let things drop. If I heard she'd bitched me out to a close friend or two, no problem, sometimes I blow off steam, too. But when she talks about me without talking *to* me, who knows what crazy ideas she has about me?
No clue what you are talking about, but hugs if you need them. Hope your day improves.
Hugs are always welcome from you, darlin'... and yes, my day did improve, in fact. (It ended with my doing my ritual blessing for Rivka's baby (still unborn, last I heard), and how can a joyful thing like that not be an improvement?)
Wow.. wasn't expecting to find you out here in left field with me. This was a real surprise. I do hope it all settles out with whomever it is, in a positive way.
Long distance hugs n stuff, cause, well, I can. 8)
Thanks; long distance hugs n stuff back at you.
Yeah, I've been going through a lot of changes, and realizing that I'm weird has been a strangely freeing experience. I used to feel afraid of conflicts, at least of a certain type. Now, it's like "Of course there could be conflict! I'm weird! And I'm weird about weird stuff, and not just ordinarily weird about weird stuff! We could come into a stupid conflict for what looks like no reason, but damn it all, we can work it out, *or* agree to let it drop, *or* realize we'll just be more comfortable being friendly acquaintances."
Sometimes, as strange as it seems, being friendly acquaintances can be for the best... but I'm glad we're friends.
This post something I feel I should point to for people who deal with me. While it isn't written with my voice, it is something that I would write since it is so true for me as well.
Also, an important concept to me is that someone says the same things about me behind my back as they would to my face. If I find out that a someone is annoyed/aggravated/pissy (or some other emotion) about me and I had no idea because it isn't something they would let me know or bring up when we are together, it really grates on my nerves. I don't feel safe around those people. And if one of them is a friend, that is even worse.
I try to do the same in return. I may say something differently to someone's face to be tactful and not hurt them, but the content should be the same.